honeyviolet11

know what? i think i've mellowed down. is this the price i have to pay in exchange for a happier life? i sincerely hope not! i don't want to be just another person in this world, walking around mindlessly, unaware of the infinite possibilities of life. actually, i'm not really sure if i really backed off from the edge. i think i'm still the same. i just lost my angst. somehow, i miss it -- the sadness of living alone, dreaming the days away, putting up a smile while i'm crying inside... you know. that kind of stuff. but, those days are gone. it may never come back. i will never be that lonely anymore -- not while my girlfriend is around. she chased those days away. the space in my heart that was filled with sadness and angst is now filled with love and warmth. it's all because of her. she even helps me fight my demons away!

sure we fight sometimes. i mean, who doesn't? it's part of the package. the funny thing is, although i hate to say this, it appears that i start most of our fights. lol! i really should try harder.*

payday

hooray! it's payday!

i really need to budget my money wisely. it really sucks when i run out of cash a week before payday. i would not want to experience it again. although i must admit that my being broke was self induced. i guess i was being kinda bored with my great life so i decided to add a little spice to it. it went well as expected. i get to suffer a little. but that's all behind me now. lesson learned: there are some things i can do without.*

condo dilemma

tonight, i'll be sleeping in my dad's condo. i'm not sure about the consequences of sleeping in a condo but i guess it won't be that bad. i hope i'm right. there is one problem though. there's no phone line in that place. that means i have to go to the office in case i get paged tonight. am i willing to take that risk? um, i haven't thought about that well enough to provide a very good answer. i'll think about that later. right now i have to think about my date with F.*

maybe i'm not sleeping in the condo after all.*

hitch

i was supposed to write something here, but i forgot was it was. and now i'm too lazy to try to recall. so there! lol!*

i was late for work this morning. i was supposed to be in the office by 9:30am but i arrived at around 10am. i usually come to the office at 7:30ish but this day was different. for one, my Dad was out of town. i had to commute. second, it was raining. along with the rain comes heavy traffic. fyi, it's really hard to commute when it's raining, especially if you don't have an umbrella. lol!*

so this is my adventure for the day...
i was standing under the stairs of an overpass. the rain was pouring. i had no umbrella, no jacket, no extra shirt. (it was a good thing i wasn't wearing my dress shoes.) the polo that i was wearing gets wet easily. i need to get to the other side of the overpass without getting wet. (or at least without getting VERY wet. lol!) out of desperation, (i was desperate to get to the office as soon as possible.) i decided to ask strangers with umbrellas if i could cross the street with them. i asked about 4 persons before i got a "hitch." now, how many people would do what i just did? not many, i think.*

it was not "happily ever after" after that. as i've mentioned, i was still late for work, despite my efforts. no thanks to the heavy traffic. oh, and the bus i was riding, it took a long route to avoid the traffic. because of that, the trip took longer that it should have. fcuk!*

paged!

my life is not really complicated. i wake up, go to work, eat, sleep,and do whatever. i'ts kinda like your average daily life -- only it's mine. lol!

early this morning (more like, in the middle of the night!), at around 1:30ish, i got a support call for an application that is not working properly. unfortunately, (as if being paged is not unfortunate) i am not familiar with that application so i have to call up a team mate -- too bad for her. i think i got off pretty easy. i just did what she said and went back to sleep (4am). Grrr! i haven't had any decent sleep this week. i hope tonight i would. it's not really that bad. i'm being paid by the hour for this. lol! oh i can't wait until the next support call!

ciao

Intro

great! my first blog post.

my life is one great adventure.