Today is F's birthday. It's supposed to be a happy day but somehow i don't think so. I wonder if she's going to like my gift to her.
Oh! Last night, we ate at Seafood Club in Greenbelt 3. That has got to be the most expensive date I ever had. Oh well. Let's blame it to the economy. LOL!
I have so much work to do! Grrr! My eyes hurt. I don't know why. I think I need a vacation. I need to unwind and get closer to nature. The effect of the Pagudpud trip had faded away. I feel chained. Unfree. I'm burdened by all this work. I want to release all this pressure...
Still, i look at the bright side. sometime in the near future, I will feel happy because I overcame these obstacles.
"I just feel like I'm drowning in a dark hole." This is what the system admin wrote to me in her email. She was asking for help. I was a little apprehensive to acknowledge her comment. She sounded really sad. Really, really desperate. Apparently, in some not-so-remarkable twist of fate, that is exactly what I'm feeling right now. I'm drowning in a dark hole. A hole filled with mistakes and lapses of judgment. I'm so sad right now. I find myself sighing every once in awhile. I catch myself closing my eyes tight, wishing that my problems would go away. It's a futile attempt but somehow, it makes me feel better. Rather, it makes me feel less. Making me less depressed. Not so much but enough. Enough to last me through the day...
Cause tonight I leave my fears behind
Cause tonight I'll be right at your side
Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go, will never let go...
