silently grieving

X**: Why? Are you going to buy? (referring to Motorola V3i)
Me: Uhm... I'm tempted.
R**: What do you need it for? You alread got your Palm.

Boom!

Word of advise: Don't get too attached to material things. They could be gone in a blink of an eye.

I'm sorry I lost you. It was good while it lasted.

rolling off

I am rolling off my current project.

This is going to be a great change. Surprisingly, I'm only a little excited about it.

New project
New location
New environment
New faces
New opportunities
New threats
(How about a new outlook in life? Why not?)

Still, I feel a little numb.

Stoicism? Could be.
Denial? I hope not.
Acceptance? That would be good.
Maturity? I'd like to think so.

Change is not always bad. It is beyond good and bad. It is inevitable. Everything beyond my control is inevitable. The sooner I accept it, the faster I move on. And moving on is always good.

Can anyone quote me on this? LOL

catchy song: 8 Easy Steps by Alanis

How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solvable predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you
How to keep people at arms length and never get to close
How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone
How to feel worthless unless you're helping

I'll teach you all this in 8 easy steps
In the course of a lifetime you'll never forget
I'll show you how to in 8 easy steps
I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best

How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist
How to play all highest when you're really a hypocrite
How to hate God when you're a prayer and a spiritualist
How to sabotage your fantasies

I've been doing research for years
I've been practicing my ass off
I've been waiting my whole life for this moment, I swear to you
Culminating just to be this well versed leader before you

How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else
How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself
How to numb alaholic (?) to avoid going within
How to stay stuck in your life blaming them

shock

We have just been informed that our project will be shut down before June of this year. I kinda predicted it. I mean, if I was the client, I'd close us down, too. Having two offices within the same time zone is kinda redundant. It's a waste of money.

 

We have less than five months to pack our bags and leave.

 

An officemate told me that people will be more appreciative of their work and the people they live with now that the project is ending. As for me, I ju█♥▐╓▐▬╫▐▀Φ▌╙²▄▐■√·...