honeyviolet11

know what? i think i've mellowed down. is this the price i have to pay in exchange for a happier life? i sincerely hope not! i don't want to be just another person in this world, walking around mindlessly, unaware of the infinite possibilities of life. actually, i'm not really sure if i really backed off from the edge. i think i'm still the same. i just lost my angst. somehow, i miss it -- the sadness of living alone, dreaming the days away, putting up a smile while i'm crying inside... you know. that kind of stuff. but, those days are gone. it may never come back. i will never be that lonely anymore -- not while my girlfriend is around. she chased those days away. the space in my heart that was filled with sadness and angst is now filled with love and warmth. it's all because of her. she even helps me fight my demons away!

sure we fight sometimes. i mean, who doesn't? it's part of the package. the funny thing is, although i hate to say this, it appears that i start most of our fights. lol! i really should try harder.*