A mixture of Curiousity and Boredom led me to my Sent folder of my email account. I stumbled into these email from F dated Feb 19, 2004. She's so sweet!
F wrote:The reason i read the runaway jury again was that it was going to be shown. and the whole plot was not taken from the book. iba ung story. siguro unahin muna natin ung cold mountain kasi madami nang nagsasabi sa akin na maganda raw. ang iniisaip ko lang kung ok lang kung ok kay a*** l*** un (ung manonood tayo ng movie at ung mismong movie). love story ung cold mountain eh, baka lalong siyang malungkot! alam mo, medyo suspicious ako sa motives ni a*** l***. kasi minsan lang un magyaya, pero laging may motive. tapos she even specified for me to take you. Ganun na ba siya kalungkot? Hehehehe! Alam mo sad rin si a***. *sigh* Buti na lang i have you!!! That's why I'm going to hug you! (Just imagine it, ok?) You know, it's easy to get lost in a busy world. To feel that real love is non-existent, or that it's not something we can rely on. It's easy to be doubtful and insecure especially when one is in a relationship during these times. During these times, I have your letters, cards and your emails to remind me of you, that you're here for me. Thanks...
I decided to read my journal entries and stumble into this one. Its about how sad I am for not being able to give F the gift she wanted last Christmas.
I'm glad I was able to give it her this year. =)
There's a deep longing
Inside of me
Something I cannot fathom
Nor comprehend
I see you whenever I
Close my eyes
In my dreams, when I awake
I long to see you, to
Feel your touch
Once again
To see you smile upon me
To hold your gaze
My heart misses you so
Your lips so sweet
So bitter this separation
This longing I cannot stand
What I would give
To have you
Again for a moment
Then for a lifetime
